Month: February 2017

Got another glucometer today. Battery change in the old one only helped it to work sporadically. Will call the company about replacement.

BG down to 10.4 this morning. Feeling shaky cuz it hasn’t been that low in 4 days.

Have been sick with flu for last 3 days, BG running high (14-18). Nausea. Mostly rice and applesauce. And ‘new’ glucometer fucked up again. Basically shut down. No low battery sign or anything. I scrounged and found some because it’s after 7pm on a Friday and I live 30 mins from town. Got it working again for tonight.

Woke up this morning to moonlight, bright and golden on the mountains in the blueness of dawn. Roads will be icy this morning. The moon is sinking behind the clouds now and colours are becoming their own again.

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Sometimes I imagine all the holes I have poked in my abdomen and thighs oozing all the insulin back out. And I would be all nonchalant about it, like it happens all the time. ‘Oh sorry, just my injection sites leaking, don’t mind me…’

It’s only been 18mos, imagine all that would ooze out after 50 years?

Can’t stand myself right now. I’m obsessively either thinking about my fucking BG or about housing. (Landlord came by the other day with eviction notice- family health problems, they need the cabin). I’m sad and angry. I don’t even know what to say. I’m just tired of this.

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Trying to stay positive so I should report that A1C is down to 8.0!

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BG 17.8 tonight. Did 1.5unit correction. Alarm set for 2am to do a check. Scared about doing a bigger correction like that but also thinking “fuck this, I gotta be brave”.