Month: March 2018

Well, 13.5 an hour and a half after doing a 2 unit correction for 14.8. I am so fucking frustrated.

I keep putting off so many things..

I think I am a little afraid to renew my RMT license. I feel like I failed myself with it before, when I decided to let it go a couple of years ago (the winter after my diagnosis).

But I miss it. Even though there are so many hoops to jump through this year to reinstate it, I miss the calm and the confidence. I miss my hands just knowing what to do.

I am afraid of failing at it again, though. I am in a better place now and I have more control and understanding of my disease but I don’t want to be exhausted all the time.