Month: June 2017

I think I’m gonna do it, I’m gonna move to the tiny apartment in town I was offered. I think it’ll be a great activity in downsizing- deciding what I really want to keep dragging around and what I can let go of.. Also walking to work will help a lot… mentally, physically… and it’s uphill, so that’ll be good, right?

Hoping to do more than just survive today. Felt groggy all day yesterday, dragging myself around. Would really like to be more ‘on’ today. I feel more rested but still not well-rested.

Feeling snippy and grumpy when people talk to me this week. Usually the exercise wears that off but I am also wondering if I need to increase the intensity of my workouts- not getting that nice endorphin rush as much anymore. I am proud of me for being so much healthier than I was 6 months ago though.

Tired and foggy most of the day even though BG was around 9 all day.

Except now it’s 15.5 at 10:45pm. I ate last about an hour ago so a correction could crash me later. If I can stay awake another half hour or so I’ll check again..

I had a low after dinner that scared me.

Dropped even lower after having 4 dex tabs (went from 3.4 to 2.8 in 15 minutes).

I’ve never had this happen before. So, I over compensated with too much carbs. Just now, at bedtime, had to correct for a high of 17 (1 unit correction) but now I’m afraid it’ll drop too much. Basically it all got fucked up today, probably because of the junk food I ate earlier. Should I get up and check in the middle of the night? I have to get up early to open tomorrow…

I’m sitting at the kitchen table, mostly staring out the window. I have the empty box for my lantus beside the laptop, to remind me to call the pharmacy later for a refill. As I am sitting here, sipping my tea and trying to wake up, I’m reading the box. (It reminds me of how I would read the cereal box when I was having breakfast before school).

There are 100 units of insulin in 1ml of this medication.

One mililitre.

How small is that? Around the size of a medium grape? That’s a lot of medication in such a small space.

I know there are drugs that are way, WAY stronger, but I’m also amazed that such a small amount of something keeps me alive. A tiny fraction of something the size of a grape can be the difference between life and death for me.