Month: July 2018

July 4th

When I’m focusing hard on getting everything back under control, the days can get very long.

There is always a small feeling of shame/embarrasment when I can’t keep everything under control. I know it’s silly to feel that way (cuz this is hard!!) but it sometimes feels like I’ve failed myself, not being able to control with MDI (multiple daily injections).

I’ve been weighing the idea of getting a pump.  But then I think ‘I’m a smart, organized person, I should be able to control my own body without an external piece of equipment, right?’. It makes me feel more disabled, makes me have to admit this disease to myself again.

July 3rd

Been up for one hr. BG 14 now. Having toast and correcting. Family heading out today and I will get myself back on track. Haven’t been eating my regular meals or at regular times.

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16.1 2hrs after 30g snack and I did a 1 to 15 correction ratio.

It’s 5pm now. Trying to decide what to have for dinner.

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Went for a 10min walk after supper. 10mins won’t really do anything but it’s the act of doing it that is important. Doing 6.5 lantus again.

July 2nd

Meter said “HI” at 7:50pm, and not in a friendly way.

I have never seen that on my own meter before.

Had snack and correction a little while ago. Scared. Correcting again (yes, probably ‘stacking’ but don’t care right now).

Drinking water now. Feeling so distant from it.

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9pm 23.8

10pm 15.4

So, an 8 pt drop in an hour. Great.

Will stay up another hour and then retest. I figure didn’t account for FPUs at lunch or supper. Fuck.

10:50pm 13.5. The drop is slowing. My alarm is set for 2am

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1230am 8.6. That’s another 5 in one hr. Had 15g and alarm reset for 3am.

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10.4 at 3am.