Month: February 2016

February 29

I was thinking about how tired I am of doing math every time I want to eat. And I am amazed that this process is already ‘built in’ to non-diabetics, and done better than we can do manually. No big spikes or crashes. No guessing – the pancreas just does it. Gets me thinking about all the organs, when they’re healthy, just go along doing their thing.

Without getting into all the specific hormone actions, think about the basics. The heart beats regularly. The lungs exchange oxygen for carbon dioxide.. My body is beating and breathing and digesting…

We are amazing. My body, even with it’s little deficiencies, amazes me.

But I still don’t like having to do math when I eat.

February 27

Lowest low tonight. Felt a bit wobbly when I was getting ready for my shower, then a little drunken stumble so decided to check.

2.4

I miscalculated at supper. I relied on a recipe calculator rather than what was in my bowl. Plus I have been running high for days so I tried 1 unit: 15g instead of 1 unit: 20g. Bad combo.

Hard to move at that low. Shoveled food in (tummy ache now). Sweaty! Shaky. Long half an hour to get above 7. Scary shit.

At 10mmol when I took my Lantus- had an orange just then too, just to be safe. Am exhausted now and it’s barely 8:30pm. Maybe a bit of tea and then sleep.

February 21

It’s been a long week.

I realized this weekend that I need to take the full bolus dosing at meals on days off. Usually at work I’ll take a full 1 or 1/2 unit less because I know I’ll run it off. (Say a meal is 45g of carbs, I’ll take 1 unit instead of 2- my ratio is 1unit:20g right now). But on days off I am not as active. I worked a post-lunch high of 16mmol off with the stationary bike today but still high 2 hrs after supper (17.5). I`m not worried right now ‘cuz I still have to take the Lantus, which will drop it a bit overnight.

February 4

Got a temp full time line in Assisted Living- busy, lots to learn. Feeling overwhelmed. I think I am depressed, or have a tv addiction- I disappear into tv without even noticing and let everything pile up. And it doesn’t bother me.

Feeling potential in a new place to live- a little cabin over in Harrop, next door to a good friend of mine. Beautiful spot and having someone I know so close is a really big relief.