August 29

Vacay was great! So tricky to manage BG with restaurant food – did a lot of FPU boluses and larger meal boluses too. Was good to get in the pool a couple times, even though that afternoon one I almost had a crash – down to 5.8. I could feel it so I just went to the change room and had a granola bar then came back to the pool.
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Tired this morning. Didn’t get home from vacation until 7 pm and then had to work at 7:15 am the next day. Haven’t felt like I have had time to recover. Tomorrow and the next day I’m working. Fuzzy brained this morning. So much on my mind – working at the store, am I quitting the other job for reals? Am I going back to massage? I can’t make any of those decisions today…

July 29

Good ride today! Did the Blewett back road/ 49 Creek hill – hard but not impossible, although I did need to stop a couple times to catch my breath. The ride back was mostly downhill and I had had too much carbs during so when I got back to the car I was 16.4. Panicked a bit. With lunch and correction I was due to take 5 units but after exercise, BG can keep dropping for a bit. I probably should’ve taken 4.5 or even 4 but I didn’t, I took the full 5.

Now 2 hrs later and I just fought off a low of 3.6.

Oops.

June 26

It’s not all terrible. I know a lot of what I write is when I am feeling shitty but there are other times when I feel strong and determined. Like I am bigger than my disease. Got my BG down below 10 a few times today, by the end of the day. Running around at work, waterwaterwater, strict food intake. End of the shift was hard cuz my routine was thrown off- I ended up taking my Lantus late but it’s ok now.

Tiredness is hitting. With all my great BG work today, it’s a bit low for bed (6.8) so pbj (22g) and I’ll check it in the middle of the night when I get up to pee.

My dad loves to tell this story about how when I was a bratty teenager there was one day I made this grossed out comment about a pbj sandwich he was making for himself. I said something like ‘I would never put that much jam on a sandwich!!’ I get it now,dad!! I totally fuckin’ get it!!!

February 27

Lowest low tonight. Felt a bit wobbly when I was getting ready for my shower, then a little drunken stumble so decided to check.

2.4

I miscalculated at supper. I relied on a recipe calculator rather than what was in my bowl. Plus I have been running high for days so I tried 1 unit: 15g instead of 1 unit: 20g. Bad combo.

Hard to move at that low. Shoveled food in (tummy ache now). Sweaty! Shaky. Long half an hour to get above 7. Scary shit.

At 10mmol when I took my Lantus- had an orange just then too, just to be safe. Am exhausted now and it’s barely 8:30pm. Maybe a bit of tea and then sleep.