When I’m focusing hard on getting everything back under control, the days can get very long.
There is always a small feeling of shame/embarrasment when I can’t keep everything under control. I know it’s silly to feel that way (cuz this is hard!!) but it sometimes feels like I’ve failed myself, not being able to control with MDI (multiple daily injections).
I’ve been weighing the idea of getting a pump. But then I think ‘I’m a smart, organized person, I should be able to control my own body without an external piece of equipment, right?’. It makes me feel more disabled, makes me have to admit this disease to myself again.