September 22

Can I not think about food or my BG for 5 minutes??! Fuck!
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Will I ever feel less careful? When will I not worry every time I eat or walk or work?
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What am I doing? What about work and life?
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My brain can’t focus. All I am thinking about is food. I’m hungry! My BG are almost always around 10 – I shouldn’t feel hungry all the time. All I want to do I eat! How do I get past this place?
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Feeling overwhelmed and don’t know what to do with myself – don’t know where to start. Flaked out all day. OK, tomorrow you need to start doing stuff- 3 more days ’til work starts.