Living with Diabetes 1.5
Terrible night’s sleep, oh and I get to work this evening.
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BG got as low as 19mmol by 10:30pm- four hrs after supper. I have no idea what my doctor will say when I see him next week. I think I should get a glucometer- being able to test the last few days has really opened my eyes.
I feel like I can feel the sugar making syrup out of my blood, it’s slowly sludging through my veins.
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I’m tired… want to nap. It was hard concentrating on driving today. Scattered thoughts. Can’t focus. Thinking about working the next three days is exhausting. Killing time on the internet, trying to stay awake.
Crappy feeling justified. Decided to check my BG at work:
0800 23.2mmol (breakfast at 0530- toast, pb, tea)
1130 25.9mmol (sips of smoothie all morning)
1330 20.5 lunch at noon-salad with feta cheese and eggs
This makes me feel better that I am not being a hypochondriac but scares me…
(I remember also that I was scared but numb to finding this out. I think there was a lot of disbelief in my head, and I was basically dragging myself around due to exhaustion that I didn’t really care about much at that point.)
Being pulled in too many directions and all I can think about is my health and how it isn’t normal to feel how I feel.
I’m tired. I have another yeast infection. Because I’ve been treating my body like shit – eating poorly and too much sugar… tired of worrying. Tired of not feeling settled.
(Also at this point I have just finished my orientation at Kaslo so technically have two part time and one casual job. I am working an average of 6 days a week or runs of 7 or 8 (sometimes massage and nurse in one day) with two days off.)
Called in sick today – sore throat, one tonsil inflamed…
Tired. Always. Must be getting tired of reading about how tired I am.
I noticed today that my vision has improved, almost back to normal. Faces, street signs all clear again. 6 days of no sugar.
Sleep is all fucky. Awake at 2:30am after 5 hrs… I’m afraid of this… that it is a progression of diabetes – poor wound healing, unexplained weight loss (I’m down to 170 lbs from 180 in June and I’m barely exercising and not eating well at all.) And I’m working way too much… now it’s 3:30 am and technically I have to get up in 1 1/2 hrs and I am feeling exhausted now. Should I try and sleep for an hour? Don’t know if I have a choice, I might have to…
Optometrist suspicious that the blurry eyes has to do with BG levels (nothing is actually physically wrong with them). I don’t want to think about it.