Month: August 2016

August 13

Ride today with a friend, training for the MS ride next weekend. We did 60km and all I can think about is how frustrated I am with myself. My BG has been running high for 2 days and this morning and didn’t burn off my regular exercise carb, so stayed high. I was at 18mmol an hour in and 13 at lunch (total 2 hr ride time before that).

Oh, and because we just weren’t organized, I left my insulin in the car, which was a ways away from where we had lunch, so basically had lunch with no insulin. Fuck. I didn’t dare take my BG after lunch, I’m sure it was ridiculous.

We biked another hour and a half after lunch and I got it down to 11! Holy crap! Yay! I just did a full correction for supper so I’ll see what happens. Not sure why it’s running higher- sick? Stress? (I am about to start a new job…)

August 12

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking as I’ve been reviewing my old journals for these posts. I still can’t believe how much has changed for me in the last year- it’s really amazing!

Last year at this time I was really sick. And now I am a different person. I’m not the strongest I have ever been but my body is pretty healthy right now. The MS bike ride is next weekend. I don’t feel like I’ve trained enough for it but I’m gonna give it a shot anyway. I realized when I was messaging mum earlier that the fact I can manage my diabetes with hard core exercise like riding 200 km in two days was pretty much the whole challenge part of this bike tour. It’s a super great fundraiser and a personal challenge for each rider. Even if I don’t finish the ride, I think I got this.

August 1

Yep, I can’t stay at this job. I’m home at almost 9pm (and have to leave in the morning at 7:30am to go back) and I realized I don’t have enough food to get me through the day tomorrow. I’m staying up cooking and I’ll still have to drop in at the grocery store tomorrow. I’m exhausted from the long days and have no energy left for days off.
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I’m about ready to burst into tears… BG 6.9 at 10 pm.