I used to never think about food this much, used to just eat when I was hungry. Can’t do that anymore cuz now the ‘hungry’ feeling usually means my BG is high.
High tonight. Dosing for meals plus correcting highs. Even correcting for snacks, which I never used to have to do. 16.6 2 hrs after my snack. This is why I don’t want to be in my head, why I use tv to escape so often- then I don’t have to think about this for a little while.
And why didn’t I exercise today? Cuz I’m exhausted again, that’s why.
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15.4 two hrs later. I am so frustrated and feel so broken right now. I am angry and I feel defeated. I feel the pressure of tomorrow already. I feel like I am falling behind with everything. I feel alone in this fucking disease, chained to it.