Spiking to 17 more than 2 hrs after eating. Tears. I know all the things to bring it down. I know it’s a science experiment everyday and everyday is different. Physically I know what to do to manage but sometimes it’s the mental part that makes me kind of detach from my thoughts about it and just go through the motions.
Honestly, I still daydream about the ‘before time’.
I am not ‘ok’ with having this disease. Right now I am not accepting of it. I wonder if it is related to POF because it is another autoimmune disorder. Will there be more of these autoimmune dyfunctions to come? I am not ok with this. I never asked for it. I did nothing to bring this on.
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So thankful for my coworkers. They pick me up when I am feeling low…