Ok, gonna be really vigilant today and see if there’s any improvement. BG 14 at 9:30am – full dose plus correction at breakfast. Now it’s 11am and I’m at 15.6. Maybe I’ll get on the bike? I don’t know what else to do. I just switched vials, I’ll see if that changes anything. Sleepy. Ketones are fine.
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So unfocused. No concentration.
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Was all excited and hopeful today- with the changes of the vials. Dosed correctly, biked… tonight took 4.5 lantus and had my last snack (pb toast=30g). Two hours later my BG is fucking 17.
So fucking angry and frustrated. I’ll do 5units tomorrow for sure. I feel like a fuckin failure- I can’t manage anything. Am sabotaged by my own fuckin body every fucking day.
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I don’t wish this disease on anyone but I wish there was a way to explain how draining the management part can be. And how easily a number can destroy your mood and how much you feel failed and betrayed by your own body. I can’t think ahead to make plans with people because sometimes the day or the night before might have been exhausting/ or that sometimes I need to be at home cuz I am feeling fragile. How do I explain that to someone without sounding weak?
Like right now, it’s 10pm and I’m about to check my BG again. I know I only took the correction dose half an hour ago but I’m exhausted and want to go to sleep. And I still have to go get that A1C done…
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10pm and it’s 19….