Tag: independence

August 29

Colon Prep Day!!

So tomorrow morning is my procedure. Fluid breakfast with only 50% of my rapid dose. I am interested to see how that goes today. Will be home today, puttering and resting.

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Tired today! Funny to be reminded how much food gives us energy, duh!! Hve napped and read and puttered. Am getting more nervous about tomorrow and trying to really figure out what part I am nervous about. I realize it is the ‘loss of control’ feeling when thinking about the sedative. I was thinking back to when I was diagnosed with diabetes and being admitted to hospital. Honestly, it was so relieving handing the care of my body over to other people. With three years of this disease under my belt, I feel I have to always be ‘on’ and completely letting go is scary.

I am trying to remind myself of that peace I felt with handing over my care to people who knew what they were doing.

 

May 17

Team meeting was today. Specialist said I am doing great, managing really well for someone who is so sensitive to insulin. He said there’s nothing I can really change, just keep doing what I’m doing, keep trying.

And it was such an overwhelming relief to see the understanding on his face when I said I am exhausted and frustrated.

We also discussed pump/CGM. Going that route has always seemed a little surreal to me but Dr. brought them up as an option to offer a little more control. He said if the A1C continues to creep up then it might be something to consider. CGM on it’s own is just like doing the finger pokes so best to do the two together, if I want to go there. The pump would help because I am so sensitive to insulin- it would allow me to do 1/4unit adjustments. With the pens I am only able to do 1/2unit as the smallest adjustments.

He also gave me a script for a glucagon kit. (A glucagon kit has injectable glucose to be used in emergencies when you are hypoglycemic and are unable to eat or drink before losing consciousness). A glucagon injection is usually administered by another person, as the diabetic person is probably unresponsive by that time.

So… my thoughts about that….

I live alone. I choose to spend a lot of my time on my own. If I become unresponsive at home there is no one there to notice. I know this is the reason I sometimes let my numbers run high. I know this is one of the reasons I check my BG more often than I need to.

The prescription is pinned on my bulletin board.