Doctor said diabetes, which I already knew. (I did a fasting BG yesterday morning with dad’s glucometer and it was 18mmol). So, did fasting blood work and urine test this morning at the doctor’s office and he said when he gets those results back he’s going to set me up to see the dietitian and the nurse at the Diabetic Clinic up at the hospital.
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I’m a little depressed but not at all surprised. Feel like I have betrayed myself, or my body has betrayed me or something. Maybe. I dunno. I’m tired and I can’t wait to start feeling normal again. I don’t even remember what that’s like, the feeling I have now is my normal. Yuck.
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I feel distance from my diagnosis. I feel like it’s a mistake or when they do the A1C it’ll show a super low percentage, that it’ll prove that all this is happening just because I’ve been eating poorly for the last bit of August and beginning of Sept. It’s my fault I let my body down and it scares me that I’m not more worried.
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Living with Diabetes 1.5