Tag: hypoglycemic

Having a low while driving really sucks. Hot brain and distance behind my eyes. Pull the car over and put it in park. Feels like slow motion to turn it off. BG 2.9. Was 7.4 an hour ago. I had wine last night, was that part of it?

5:30am. BG 3.3. It started as a deep fluttering, low along my spine, at the base of my ribs, snuggled in behind my organs. That in itself doesn’t make me get up but my brain knows now and the alarm sounds in my head.
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Even once it’s up again (like now it’s 8.8), I still feel ‘oogy’, like a mild hangover. Gonna go lie down again for a while…

So how do I manage sometimes? This is why it feels overwhelming – shift at the nursing home and get a call that a resident is on the floor and as I am striding down the hall to her room I get the hollow feeling and start sweating. We get her in bed and then I allow myself to go check my BG. (Yes, I know I said my first priority should be me…)

So, I’m 3.8, downing dextabs and shaking and sweating and shoving trail mix in my mouth – oh and I can’t think clearly and have to go back down and do vital signs for my resident.

How do I balance? How do I make it work? I don’t know and it’s frustrating.

Drove down to the Okanagan to visit my dad- scary to do on my own but I did it!!

Started talking to him about diabetes stuff. This evening we both had a crash at the same time and both to 2.9. Then after our sugar and snack both retested to 6.4. I felt like he was holding back talking but having the crash together kind of ‘broke the ice’- we were jittery and shaky together.

This is really hard. Another crash today at work, doing massage this time. 2.9mmol. Ate an hour and a half before, but I realize now, not the full serving I had portioned out and planned for- I wasn’t really hungry and felt full so I didn’t finish it. 4dex tabs got it up to 3 something. The office manager cancelled my other two massage treatments for me.
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It was embarrassing and yet somehow I felt a disconnect from it. I feel disconnected from a lot of this, like it’s happening to someone else or it’s all an experiment I don’t really have to take seriously. Problem is, I have to take it very seriously. Not that I have to walk around being all sullen but I need to make my body and my health my number one priority. I have never really put myself first. That may be part of where this disconnect is coming from… and it’s fuckin’ scary to be in it, so disengaging is a safe place to be. If I’m not present, I don’t really feel it, I don’t take it as seriously. How do I make myself my top priority and be present in this?
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3a.m. BG 5.6. It was 6.4 an hour ago. So I just got up and had toast and peanut butter. That’s what I rely on to keep me steady- toast and pb. Maybe that’s what I’ll call the blog. Haha!

Just had my lowest low so far: 3.3mmol. and at the same time trying to help a resident off the floor and back into bed, meanwhile I’m shakey, sweating and slightly nauseous – came on really quickly. Scary to think I am the one that has to be ‘in charge’ and could be having an incident at the same time. Got her back into bed then I left and downed 4 dextabs. 15 minutes later up to 4.6. Sat with yoghurt and granola bar. Will check again in 10 but I already feel less shakey, less disoriented. Scary. But I was prepared too.