Author: leannah

Up way too early. No A1C today. I had planned to go in early to do it but woke up at 4am and not getting back to sleep. I can’t sit around for 4 hrs til the lab opens and not eat or drink. I’ll do it next week. A bit pissed off but whatever.

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At lunch I dosed correctly (or thought I did) and then didn’t really do anything big (a bit of housecleaning). 2 hrs later BG is at 5.0. Not low but borderline. I don’t like borderlines, especially when I’m not doing anything big. Anyway, having a snack and I’ll check it again in a bit.

Body fakin me out today.

Thought I felt a low coming so checked 15mins before lunch- 7.2. Sometimes when I’m up early (with or without extra caffeine) my body gets this shaky feeling that makes me think ‘low’. Great.

Anyway, I had a tuna wrap from the deli for lunch and thought I estimated too much insulin (guessed on the carbs in wrap. The wrap itself was large so looking back now, I should’ve considered it 2 ‘servings’ not one), aaaannyways… 2 hrs later I’m up at 13mmol. Lots of water and tea then good at supper and 6.8 at 7:30pm when the lantus is due. Snack and recheck an hour later -8.1. Another snack cuz worried about overnight and lantus not at it’s peak yet. Too tired to think too much more tonight.

A year ago I was sick but didn’t really know it and everything was still ‘normal’ (or ‘old’ normal). I feel like I have a handle on my routine but when I think about having a disease I still feel a disconnect from it and from the idea of it. I don’t really know how to explain it. Sometimes it feels like there is a fog around me that I can’t see through, when I try and see myself.

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So much on my mind and I don’t feel like I can deal with any of it.

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Today was the day last year that I checked my BG for the first time. I think I remember checking it twice because I didn’t believe it. One of the nurses I was working with actually suggested it (and I had been thinking it but not really wanting to think it) because I had mentioned to her my concerns and suspicion.

Holy fuck my body has been through a lot in the last 12 months.

BG perfect this morning- 8.2 at 7am.

Then I had a late morning snack of chips. Yeah, yeah, I know. I knew it was a bad idea. This is why I can’t have snacks like this in my house.

2 1/2 hrs later it’s 19. Big correction at lunch. BG 18.6 an hour after lunch and am heading into town to run some errands. So sleepy. Fuck.

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One hour later and I’m in town and it’s 8.3. A bit of shopping etc. and about 40 mins later its 4.6.

Awesome. Yep, overcorrected at lunch.

Me, the human BG experiment.

Now I am sitting in my car in the mall parking lot having a pear. Realized I spend a fair amount of time eating in my car. Mostly done my errands but I’m not bothering with anything else today- going home.

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Mostly around 6 the rest of the day. Now it’s 14 at bedtime but that’s ok, I know it’ll come down a bit more overnight. Opening shift tomorrow at work and I am tired but wired and it’s 9:30pm. Fuck.

8.4 this morning. That’s a fair drop overnight- I wonder if I need to decrease my Lantus on late work days?

I wish I felt organized. I always feel like I’m trying to play ‘catch up’ with bills, cleaning, getting back to people about various things. I’m ‘on’ so much that I feel exhausted in my brain…

Good BG at work today. Most of this week my shift has been 10:30-7:30 and today I was mostly under 10mmol all day today. End of the shift I was 5.6 which is a little low but still in good range. I was worried because I still had to take my Lantus and drive home. So I overreacted and bought chips. 13.3 half an hour later. Whoops.

Ok, gonna do better tomorrow. Fruit or cheese and crackers for after work snack.

Yep, it was a tricky food day. Scarfed down lunch and supper on coffee breaks because the timing of them was closer to meal times and then had a snack at ‘lunch’ break. I guess I could’ve done a larger meal at my lunch break (3pm) and no insulin with maybe one carb serving. I stayed between 5-11mmol today. A bit high on the end range but ok. Need to get back to exercising.

BG 5.1 at 10pm. Did my Lantus dose on time and correct but not really substantial snack and worked until 9:15pm. Tomorrow’s shift it 11am-8pm and I have no idea what to do for food…